Went back to EVG today, and wow, it sure brought back memories. It isn't perfect, and I would gladly have changed some things I did back then, but now isn't the time to reminisce. There'll be things I want to change on every step of my life, but I can't and I should accept that. Then went to city hall with the guys, and we found out from esplanade there cannot walk to marina bay. Haha. Abit stupid lah. Then bowled and played arcade and came home lor.

Was really bored, so I decided to take a short walk. Actually wanted to walk from Admiralty to Sembawag and go Sun Plaza's star factory, but my legs didn't want to stop and I ended up walking all the way to Khatib Mrt. Thats like 3 stops lah. Took me 2 hrs.

And tonight, I'll try not to be emo and not drink at all. Been a long time since I've not drink myself to sleep.

I realised that playing basketball when you're emo helps release tension and you play better. Haha. I never completed ABC so fast before. And I hit a few 3's also. Should do this everyday.

Anyway, I was raelly drunk yesterday night, and I did some things I regretted when I woke up. For those who felt insulted, I'm sorry. I really can't remember what I did already. All I could remember was I couldn't even stand up and I crawled to the toilet to puke.

Downloading the sound driver for my laptop now. It'll soon have sound. Muahaha. In your face. (to nobody in particular)

And I'm trying to look on the bright side of life.

Went to mind's cafe today, play board games. Quite fun. Saboteur is such an interesting game. The fish and chips was nice.

Then me and Fir went to Clarke Quay emo. Think stuff through, and I still don't have an answer.

Sometimes, I think to myself when I feel like crying, what is my pain compared to the people starving in Africa, what is it compared to the pain the mother of a victim of a stray bullet, the pain of divorce and seeing a loved one die, the pain the others go through, and I feel so childish. Maybe I'm too sensitive.

The pain would make me a better person. Maybe like Fir said, I'll find my fairytale princess.

Met the clique. Go pray at bugis, then went to watch Dead Silence today. Not really scary. Not really a memorable movie. Not really feeling like bloggin today. So thats all

Been listening to "this I promise you" again and again for the past 24 hrs. It justs lead me to think. Maybe emoism is good. At least I'm 18 now, I finally know why people like getting drunk. Because when you're drunk, you don't think rationally, and therefore you don't think about your misery.

Anyway, going to Bugis and watching Dead silence later. I swear I'm going to piss my pants, so I better bring a spare.

Waiting is boring and I just found out today. Waited for LY for her work finish then she say she meeting her friends at City Hall. Haiz waited for nothing.

And promise Ly stop playing le.

Thanks Ly, for teaching me how rejection feels like. I'm not emo enough to go cut myself and all that shit, but i'll lie in bed, thinking of what went wrong. Am I not as good as Fir and the other guys, maybe you could tell me so I can change for the better. I'll give you whatever you want, and yet it's not enough. The feeling that even if she would ever like someone in our class, it wouldn't be me sucks. No matter how long it takes I'll want to be the only guy in your heart.

Maybe suicide is the only way out.

(Haha Fir beat that).

I realised my pool haven't deproved despite not playing for so long, which is a good sign. Played with JW and JL today, it was pretty even. Other than that, boring day

Went to chalet this past few days

Day 1: Felicia was late (again!), then we go check in. Then go cycling. Then the girls playing Mahjong den call us back. They say got 19-18-19-18, then suddenly ar disappear. Then found out actually the tiles is like that 1. WTF scare yourself only. THen bbq. then drink like fuck

Day 2: Wait up, mac breakfast, cycle, play playground, fall and hurt myself, swim, then we go eat at sempang bedok, then go back and play. Plan prank with Fir and Shaun, but fail lah. WTF, the water bomb won't burst. Then tio bomb lah.

Day 3: Then at night then we go white sands thon, but they decide to emo. Me and LY nothing emo then we go walk at pasir ris town park lor. Then go back play indian poker, then lose and must drink five shots. Then after that play Mahjong then cannot tahan go sleep awhile. Then check out go eat Bk le lor. Then go home sleep.

Then at night go JW house drink with KW, Woen, Jl and JW. Tiger onli but I think I abit high now as I typing this. Actually want type more but no mood sia. Want to puke.

My 18th birthday has come and gone. Sigh. Like old man le. Not really eventful. Just wanna say thanks to all those who wished me happy bday, and a special thanks to Fir, Shaun, Audre, Liying and Felicia, who bought me a cake and 3 presents!!!

Anyway, went to buy stuff at shensiong just now. Buy like siao lah. For tommorow's chalet. The chalet hopefully is fun, unless some people ruin it. Anyway, Shaun's got a promise to keep. Better keep it ar.

And meeting Jc friends soon hopefully, quite long never see them le. And Sec Sch friends got bbq on sept, so meeting them soon as well. Suddenly things are looking good.

I'll find out who my true friends are in 14 hours.

Fuck this world

Life is kind of meaningless

Singapore is so fucked that even when we are in poly, supposedly the second tier school, we still have to chiong to get the best. The system is so fucked and now parents queue to get their children into Canberra Primary (ahem, Canberra). Like wtf right, if is Nanyang girls or something is ok, but fucking Canberra Primary leh. Screw this system, I'll get a green card and migrate to America.

Secondly, pieces of advice for A and F. I know I'm not exactly the best person to take advice from, but here's my thoughts. A, I still think you should let her go. 2 months is still long and it'll take her only a few weeks to forget what happened, and as a friend, it pains me to see you like this. F, if you think its love, then I think you should wait till the day you die.

Unfortunately for me, I still can't find a girl that I know that is my type of girl. Sometimes I see couples on the street, and think why can't I just get into a relationship. I don't know I guess I can't just fall for any type of girl. I should probably put up an advertisment Wanted: Skinny girl with ponytail, looks like Vanessa Hudgens, and are willing to have my babies, please apply. Haiz my dream girl is in another continent, and she's one of the reason I want to move to America.

End of rant.

The thread too emo le, here's some funny pics

Darn I didn't get to copy the tag board but this was the convo after that

=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: wait.. how u got my blog url?
JianLong 564439 says: lol
JianLong 564439 says: never changed since last time
JianLong 564439 says: dont worry you still got your NYP "friends
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: zzz..
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: u enough anot? from last yr til now..
JianLong 564439 says: as in saw your url
JianLong 564439 says: today
JianLong 564439 says: then thought of catching up
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: catch my ass... catch up by insulting me again rite
JianLong 564439 says: i cant catch your ass... too darn huge...
JianLong 564439 says: as in so long never talk le, relive j1 times
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: oh.. no !
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: i had enough of ur so-called "jokes"
JianLong 564439 says: lol
JianLong 564439 says: funny leh
JianLong 564439 says: jw gerald was having fun
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: funny ur
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: to u all onli JianLong 564439 says: eee your emoticons are weird
JianLong 564439 says: yeah and yvonne and sheryl
JianLong 564439 says: dont worry now they got purple to replace you
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: heys!
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: dun compare me and her
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: pls lor..
JianLong 564439 says: yeah dont insult purple
JianLong 564439 says: eh bye wavey armpit hair polka dot girl
JianLong 564439 says: catch up sometime soon
JianLong 564439 says: coming online tomorrow?
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: crazy weirdie =~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: so wad if i got come anot
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: not enough of arguing ar
JianLong 564439 says: can catch up with you again leh JianLong 564439 says: argue?
JianLong 564439 says: this argue meh?
JianLong 564439 says: lol fun leh
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: fine! this is called "catch up"
JianLong 564439 says: bye night wavey armpit hair polka dot girl
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: crazy~ childish freak
JianLong 564439 says: ............../´¯/)...........(\¯`\ ............/....//..............\\....\ .........../....//................\\....\ ...../´¯/..../´¯\.........../¯`\....\¯`\ .././.../..../..../._......_.\....\....\...\.\.. (.(....(....(..../.)..)..(..(.\....)....)....).) .\................\/.../....\...\/................/ ..\................. /........\................../ ....\..............(............)............../ ......\.............\.........../............./ (this was supposed to look like a middle finger)
JianLong 564439 says: lol
JianLong 564439 says: whatever you want call la
JianLong 564439 says: that's the only words you know
JianLong 564439 says: see you tomorrow
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: to u tat is the onli words.. childish joker
JianLong 564439 says: Lol
JianLong 564439 says: k la k la whatever makes you happy
=~huii~= -虽然我们俩站得那么近，但其实我们的距离却那么远。。。- says: crazy.
JianLong 564439 says: say bye to childish joker who jokes about wavey armpit hair polka dot 1000kg monster which have an ocean of fats

Yvonne chooose me play this stupid game lah. I don't even have six people to tag lah. Walau

But nvm, ten weird facts about me

1) I drool
2) I dig my ear and nose
3) I sleep with the blanket cover over my head.
4) I hate dogs and cats
5) I got soft toys hidden at the top of my cardboard.
6) I drink water from water bottle (even at home)
7) I like to shake leg and put my leg on table.
8) I scared of GHOST!
9) I very scared of GHOST!!
10) I really very scared of GHOST!!!

Shit man I don't have six people to tag their blog leh. Then just whoever read this go spread lor.

The EPL season starts today!!! Anybody who says any team other than Chelsea will win shall be burned alive.