My earphone spoil le. =( What the hell is wrong with these earphones makers man. This is probably like the 1234567890th earphone I bought. The amount of money I spent on them. Argh. I still got a pair of earphones at Mj there, which I hope can last a long time. Maybe I should just buy an expensive Sennheiser earphone and get it over with.

Quite a boring weekend for me. Just did the usual stuff. What made me really happy though that X unblocked me. Haha. Guess it wouldn't make a difference though, but it just made my day, I don't know why. Can't believe how stupid I was before though.

P.S Alec's birthday today. First time I meet a guy like him. Look like a 30 year old, act like a 10 year old. Extreme man. Go and make your favourite zik man. Haha

Today rained like crazy in the morning. Lucky my dad drove me to the MRT. IVP was ok I guess, ponned Ipra, and News writing should be ok but Rajan like funny but going to blow off at anytime. Reminds me of Mr how.

I really really hope somebody will pop out and give me my dream ticket to the states. I can go for football tryouts, I can blade around the neighbourhood, get a car, and maybe join ROH school of wrestling and fulfill my dream of becoming a professional wrestler. Maybe I'm stupid to dream of this sort of thing when I'm 18 and some people my age are already settling down. Maybe I'm foolish for having unrealistic dreams and should really just concentrate on studying, but I really don't like school right now. I don't mind just withdrawing and packing up my bags and leave, as long as somebody will pay for my airline ticket.

I'm sian of the routine. Just doing the same things again and again is just boring. I need more spice in my life!!!

Went around champions way at night today, and it just brought back memories. It's only been 9 months, but wow how much things have changed. Innova Primary is almost finished, and there's a basketball court now. Teletubby hill is still pretty much the same, and the school itself is still the same. It just feels so weird seeing it now though, as if it seems so familiar and yet so foreign. Its like some thing changes, but others still stay the same. If only I can turn back time... ...

School just started and I'm already sick and tired of class already. I guess getting more projects would make it more fun, but listening to lecturers gab away seems boring to me. Today's just the second day of school and I already ponned my first lesson. I don't want to do badly again, but my brain just can't bring itself to doing it. The FUNE lecturer seems cranky and like an old auntie, the IPRA lecturer like super boring, the IDEAS lecturer like so sian also, and only the DVPA lecturer seems fun. Hopefully the rest of the teachers get better.

And argh I really want to change my warbrode, but i no money to do it leh. I wan a new racquet too.

And I'm setting a 2 year aim. Hope to succeed.

Vanessa Hudgens + cool car + satisfying sports career + cool house in california= my perfect life.

I finally figured it out. "If" means Impossible, fucker!!! That's why if's never happen.

I need a guiding light to follow. I don't want to be lost anymore.

Wrote a lot more shit here but decided not to post it.

Yesterday I thought was bad enough. Today Mourinho got fired. What am I supposed to do with the special one gone? This sucks big time.

Chelsea lost, drew and drew. My life is over.

Quite a boring day today. Chionged for Gems the moment I woke up, and ended up in entrepreneurship. Then watched movies from the link Shel sent for the whole day. At night, my bro asked me play this new game called Drift City. Quite a fun game. Is like NFS but cartoonish only. And online game also so can challenge. Now at Admiralty Mac with Woen and JL thonning the night.

I'm kinda looking forward to school starting again. No more late nights, 12 hour sleep and stoning, but I guess staying at home is getting boring. Things would be the same again, and some things change, but some things stay the same.

Not really an interesting day I guess. Went to send my parents off, then went and play pool with JW and JL. I realised that my pool game sucks when the balls are very far apart. I can make a really good shot, but then screw up an easy shot. Argh pisses me off. Then went to eat at LJS and we were talking and I said, "If fail JC come poly lor" and JL commented "last time you say if fail JC GO poly, now become COME poly". That led me to thinking, maybe if I actually worked harder last year, I wouldn't be here now. I couldn't care less if I failed or pass last year, but now when I'm slacking and they got their A lvls coming, I can't help but wish I could be mugging with them. I guess its too late now.

And I guess I have no choice but to let go now. The only thing left to hold on to is memories.

"Scars"- Papa roach

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feelI tried to help you once
Against my own adviceI saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7JX-Bx0BETQ

Admit it George Bush is da man.

Kind of a boring day, but I wonder what loving and hating someone feels like. I don't ever want to find out. I just think that in these situations, both parties need to change a little and accept each other for what they are. I hope you guys work things out and eh, I innocent ar!!! Don't ever use my name k? Maybe you guys still have a future, I guess only time will tell. Good luck guys!!! =)

I just realised how stupid I was. Stupid for believing in hope, stupid for believing in everything. I guess maybe 1 day I'll find a reason to believe again.

Kind of a boring day. Jl want play pool, so I sacriface HSM2 and F1 to go play lor. Then play until like shit like that. Damn off lah. Haiz. Then eat KFC then go home lor.

I'm not going to make this blog emo and shit, but I just wonder if this is the path that I should have taken. I could have just went to poly straight after sec sch, and would now be in year 2. I could have studied harder and be mugging for A's now, I could retain and at least know I got my friends I can count on in the new class. I could have chosen another course. I wonder if it was an upper being who decided I take this path, or this is the path I chose for myself. This is just the beginning of my journey, and there's still a long long way to go. Ya enough emo thoughts.

Anyway, good luck to ex-26d for prelims2. I wish I could be there mugging with you guys, but I guess I'm not. You guys may have new classes now but never forget the spirit of 26d!!!

I don't know why, but I just feel so inferior. I just want to be a better person. I guess it is kind of hard.

What's important is not my happiness, but the happiness of others. If I can sacriface my happiness for the happiness of everyone else, then I'm willing to do it.

Life is what it is, we take it for what it brings us.

Met Kw, Moo, Jl, and Mj when they playing pool. I no money so I play pool on Jl's hp and my hp. Quite ke lian. Then go cine eat then walk a while go home le.

Anyway I now know what I needed to know.

Argh Sp pisses me off. I go admissions office collect my student admin card which I lost at chalet. Then they say don't have, ask me go student alumni club check, I go there they ask me go school of business, then they also say don't have. So i sian sian walk back admission want report lost, then they go find then found le. Make me walk for no reason. Haha

Anyway, I just want to say I LOVE VANESSA HUDGENS. Haha hsm2 coming out ma.

Went to chalet the past night, and it brought back memories from 2 weeks ago. Walking the routes we walked two weeks ago, I thought of alot of stuff. I guess I should have seen it coming, should have read the signs. Anyway its too late now, I just hope that things can go back to what it was two weeks ago. If I could have turned back time, I would have not done things the way I did. I know my mistake now. Maybe it wouldn't have hurt as much, maybe I wouldn't have gotten others invloved. Life probably wanted to teach me a painful lesson.

I just wish things could return to normal.



"Where would we be now by Good Charlotte"

I smile, you laugh, I look away
I sigh, you ask me why, I say,
It's ok and I am just feeling' down
Your hand on mine I hear the words
If only love had found us first,
Our lives they would be different, oh
So I stand and wait, I am just a man, oh
Where would we be now baby, If we found each other first,
Where would we be now baby,And now I must confess, that I am a sinking ship
And I'm anchored by the weight of my heart
Cause its filled with these feelings
But I keep my true thought locked, beside my hearts black box
And it wont be found, it won't survive through the smoke or the wreckage
So I crash and burn, I got a lot of things to learn, oh

Where would we be now baby,
If we found each other first
What would you do now darling,
If I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait
As long as you want
But where would we be now baby
I'll wait, I'll wait
Where would we be now baby, If we found each other first
What would you do now darling,If I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait
As long as you want
But where would we be now baby
I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait

Knowing a person for years doesn't make a person a true friend. And even if you think they are true friends, they might not think you are their true friends. I'm not going to elaborate because you asked me not to say but all I got to say is, well people reveal their true colors now. I think you realised your mistake. There are better people out there to be friends with, you just haven't discovered them.

Whatever will be will be.

Quite a fun day today. Morning went out with the sec sch guys to play bball. Haha those guys crack me up everytime. Funny bunch of people. I'm improving ain't i?

Anyway once I reached hm Jw called me ask me go to town, then go lor. Then when we reach Taka got things happen lor. Even the strongest relationships need to be tested sometimes. Hope you guys work things out. Then went play pool with them lor. Then went to eat mac. Then we going home take train home then amanda ask jl meet her. Then he go lor. Wonder how it went? Keep me updated!!! Jiayou!!!

I guess I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel. Haha.